Lately God has been challenging to my core. Exposing ugly truths about myself and asking me hard questions.
Why are you so bitter?
Do you know me?
How big am I to you?
Why aren't you letting go?
Why aren't you obeying me?
Woah! Well, truthfully the questions aren't the hard part, it's the answering that comes as a heavy burden. I wouldn't even know where to begin, but thankfully God is so gracious and He is gently guiding me down this rough road of answers. Holding my hand and lifting me through all the pot holes. Ironically (not really, lol) last weeks' sermon was focused on "Who is God the Father" Well if that wasn't a hello and listen up message, I don't know what is :)
One verse that stuck with me was:
Deuteronomy 1:30-32
The Lord your God who goes before you will Himself fight on your behalf, just as he did for you in Egypt before your eyes, and in the wilderness where you saw how The Lord your God carried you, just as a man carries his son, in all the ways which you have walked until you came to this place.
{In the next couple verses it talks about what happens when you don't trust God to lead and carry you. Which is scary to think about and I am humbled at the opportunity at hand to turn from my ways and walk down this road, hand-in-hand.}
The other cool thing God has revealed about himself was this morning as I was reading, God Calling:
See the Father
“Lord, show us the Father, and it is sufficient for us.”
(John 14:8 NKJV)
My children, I have been with you so long, spending time with you and speaking to you. How can it be that you have not known the Father?
Your Father is the God and Controller of a mighty universe. But He is the same as I am (John 10:30). All the love and the strength and the beauty you have seen in Me are in My Father.
If you see that, and know Him and Me as we really are, then that is sufficient for you—is truly enough for you—completes your life—satisfies you—is all you need.
See the Father, see Me, and it is sufficient for you. This is love in abundance. Joy in abundance. All you need.
How stinkin cool, eh? I think so!! Perhaps answering these questions won't be as hard as I imagined after all.. I guess only time will tell ;)
It's time for me to shut my eyes for the night. God gave me this beautiful view to gaze upon before its off to dream land for me. Pictures of my hubby and a sweet reminder of my mom.
Night.
