Sweet Raelah, you have been chosen by our Creator. He specifically chose EVERY detail that makes you, you. From your eyes, lips, mouth, and noes to your hair, hands, finger and toes. You are perfect and while I should be sleeping right now, my eyes can't stop staring at you. You are a promised fulfilled. After years of praying and pleading with Jesus, I can finally hold you in my arms. You fit so perfectly next to me and even though most nights I wake up with a dead arm, kinked neck, and sore back, the moment my eyes meet yours.. all of my discomfort disappears. The joy you bring to me is immeasurable. What is so sweet about you, dear one, is that you will ALWAYS remind me of how faithful Jesus is. You didn't come when I thought you would but exactly how I, deep down, knew you would. After many failed IUI's and countless rounds of clomid, my heart grew weary and I begun to think that the promise I heard from God, many years ago, may have just been in my head. It was a hard thought to wrestle with. Knowing I heard so clearly from The Lord, yet not seeing any sign of His promise coming to fruition. After years of wrestling and fighting through the many attacks from the enemy who wanted me to doubt, I saw it..A promise fulfilled!! We hadn't had any type of fertility treatments for about a year, so to say I was shocked when I saw that positive pregnancy test would be an understatement. Yet, in that moment of disbelief I heard The Lord say, I did this..just as I said I would. I needed you to not be on any type of fertility treatment so that no one could take credit for this other than Me. This was My promise to you and I wanted to fulfill it in a way that you would know this was all My doing. From that moment, I knew that God wanted you, Raleah, to be a constant reminder of His relentless pursuit of my heart, His perfect timing, His faithfulness and His ability/willingness to answer prayers. After He said no to healing my mom He knew my heart was damaged, yet my faith remained. He knew I'd never turn away from Him no matter what and that I'd hold onto His promises {barely at times}. He knew that I'd one day realize that in those years of waiting He was showing me how fiercely He was constantly pursing me. Trying to mend my heart, heal the brokenness, and strengthen my faith in Him. He was preparing me and my heart for the day I'd see His yes. That special day, when I saw the word pregnant, will always be a memorable moment and you, my sweet love, will always be my reminder.
